As someone said – We suffer in Silence. Or rather we suffer because of Silence. The human experience is singular in its suffering. There hasn't been a human who has walked on this planet, not even one who has escaped great pain and deep sorrow. Yet we don't want to admit it to each other. Our suffering, we assume is a shameful secret to be locked away, never even to be whispered to each other, lest it diminishes us. We Indians are especially good at this kind of insularity. Keeping our personal pain hidden away is worn as some badge of honour. We die saddled with our grief, lonely and tormented by what we suffer.
But maybe my story is similar in many homes. If it’s not and is better, I will be the happiest one and can truly say – India is shining. Ever since I have interacted with the world, I have believed that truth cannot be hidden and can be used as a mighty sword. But then…..
It all started when I had decided to leave the shores of my country in search of greener pastures. I left behind my aged parents for a few extra bucks. With it I also started living internally and forgetting that life is to lead externally. I stepped into an alien country with a hope of leading a better quality of life. Quality at that moment was in a way having more money; which I believe turned out to be false, contrary to our construction philosophy – “Quality comes at a Price”.
Now after ten months of life in gulf, I have had more negatives than positives. I had lost contact with most of the people back home in my native country. I had lost touch with relatives. More important than anything else, I lost touch with myself. I have become used to the machine life. No recreation, No entertainment, No laughter and No love. All I had was a job a.k.a career and then a place to sleep to restart my job the following day. All this made me realize that trying to be rich; I was only becoming poorer by the day.
In the end, at this very moment, I realized I only was another classic example of – “Why look for diamonds elsewhere, when you can find it within you”.
